It's so dangerous for me to be awake past midnight

Volatile thoughts enter my mind and I do impulsive, drastic things. Some things I'll regret and some things I know I'll probably be proud of. Sending you that Facebook message though... I regret it already

I talk out loud like you're still around.

I disgust myself a little

tread carefully
trust sparingly
love willingly

I like making you mad.

I take great enjoyment out of it because I think it's funny.

And I know you won't hit me like you hit them.

So I keep on doing it.

i wasn't lying that one time

I am doing my best not to enable this.. but boy is it tough