I don't want you to exist anymore. i want you to go away. i wish this never happened. it's caused me to go insane. this isn't between you and me, this is a struggle with my own conscience simply inspired by you. if you just never happened this portion of my life would be so much easier. it's a constant fight to subtly get you to notice me. but no matter what, there's no prevail. i just never know, and i am going crazy and it's disgusting. i need to let go. i'm trying to let go. i need assistance.