I'm not making it easy this next time around.

Can we just make everything easier and allow me to be the only one fucked over in this situation? I mean it. I don't want anyone to hate me for something so stupid. She is in love with you as I once was, and you're treating her the same way you once treated me. Going back to you would be a huge mistake at this time in my life. And there are so many alarms going off inside of me, and a list of reasons reaching to neptune to tell me to stay away. But you make it so goddamned hard. Meddling, always, this isn't Scooby Doo.

I know for sure though, that even if I do end up back with you.. it'll be the same cycle, the same exact cycle. You'll like me till you get bored. 

Please just love her, and respect her. And let me be.

It's kind of just easier being the one no one wants to keep.

Letting go for dear life.

I hate being jealous of other people's happiness.

But I guess it's only at night, right?

11:11

I wish to stop hurting.
I wish for my heart to stop aching.
I wish this didn't happen.

It's a good thing we're two of the hardest people to read in the world.

I don't want you to exist anymore. i want you to go away. i wish this never happened. it's caused me to go insane. this isn't between you and me, this is a struggle with my own conscience simply inspired by you. if you just never happened this portion of my life would be so much easier. it's a constant fight to subtly get you to notice me. but no matter what, there's no prevail. i just never know, and i am going crazy and it's disgusting. i need to let go. i'm trying to let go. i need assistance.