"I wish you were dead"

That's been replaying in my head all morning long.
It's weird because you were the one crying this time.
And for some reason I stayed completely calm, because I understood.
But at the same time, I don't.
We were at a wedding, or maybe an outdoor divorce court.
But it was hard.
But we both understood.
I don't wish you were dead.
I hope that's true for you too.